Well, it’s been a little while since I made a new journal entry... It’s about time, isn’t it? I guess my reasons for why I haven’t updated is just because things were so hectic before school got out for summer. I was being given a lot of assignments that were due in short amounts of time, many tests, and a lot of stress. I also rejoined the FBC Youth Group and re-connected with old friends. It was good to see them again. My chores at home were also keeping me a little busier. Then there’s the fact of my break-up with ~KoricaFiretail ... It’s still...taking its toll... on both of us.

So... now that it’s summer, it’s time to take a break, relax, and just fool around. No deadlines. No assignments. Not nearly as much godforsaken stress! WHOO HOO!

Good things about the summer – swimming, sunlight, beautiful sunsets, nice warm temperatures, easier to plan events to do with friends, tanning, vacations, practice parallel parking, getting my license, and great big thunderstorms and lightning! >D

Bad things about the summer - insects and spiders, mosquitoes, humidity, strong winds, grasshoppers, temps being too hot, construction/ renovations, still don’t have my license D:>

I’m excited for the summer to be honest, despite my fear of insects and spiders. The reason for this is that I’m currently planning a trip to Ontario in the middle of July to visit family and friends. I’ll FINALLY get out of my hell hole of a home-town. On top of that, I’ll get to go travelling all around the province, and even spend a weekend at Niagara Falls ^^! Who knows what else I’ll be doing out there!

Places I’ll be in while in Ontario
1. 7 minutes outside of Exeter (staying here with my gay (meaning he likes men) cousin, aunt, and uncle)
2. London, ON (visiting my granddad and cousins)
3. Niagara Falls (staying here for a weekend)
4. Toronto ??? (zoo and CN tower maybe???)
5. Grand Bend ??? (beach and mini golf maybe???)

So as you can see, i’ll be having a fun 2 and a half weeks, I’m sure. However, during this time, I will be missing my local friends... sorry jesse... I broke your promise... v.v... I’ll make it up to you in Timmie Ho’s, ok? free of charge too.

Next line, is that when I get back to crappy little Moose Jaw, my granddad will be staying with me and my parents from August 2nd to August 14th. He’s a pretty cool guy, and spoils me like crazy, so it will be fun, I’m sure.

But yes! It is summer! I need to look for a job when I get back from this trip too... Got a resume ready and everything! I just need to hand it out.

IN OTHER NEWS...! I...am...a... HIGHSCHOOL SENIOR NOW!! WHOO!!! ONE MORE YEAR BABY, YEA! I’m psyched for it, except for the fact that every class has a final, no matter what... damn school board... what sucks even more is that my last year starts on August 25th, so yea... good news about this year? It’s my last. I’m gonna be in the 100th Grad Class of CCI! I’ll be graduating at 17~! This is gonna be sweet! I’ll miss all my friends though, I’m sure, as we’ve been through good and bad times together. Post secondary is looking ok... I’ll be going either to Vancouver or SIAST... most likely SIAST first then Vancouver later. It’s gonna be a crazy year... that’s for sure! xD

Under more recent events... my horrid decision to break up with Kori... I was an idiot (what else is new...) to leave him for good. I was happy for the first few days, then things went downward from there... We began to bash and insult each other constantly... And as a sort-og-last-resort, he tried to fake his own death as a means of cutting off all contact for good, but that kind of backfired in a sense... Right now, I miss him terribly, as we’ve both cut ourselves off from one another... I know it sounds stupid, but the most I want right now is to speak calmly with him, and try to fix some of the damage I’ve done... *sighs heavily* I am sorry Brendan... please let me try to fix a little of this damage... please...? “I hate feeling like this, I’m so tired of trying to fight this. I’m asleep and all I dream of is waking to you. Tell me that you will listen. Your touch is all I’m missing, and the more I hide I realize I’m losing you. Comatose... I’ll never wake up without an overdose of you! I don’t wanna live. I don’t wanna breathe, unless I feel you next to me. You take the pain I feel. Waking up to you never felt so real. I don’t wanna sleep. I don’t wanna dream, cause my dreams don’t comfort me the way you make me feel. Waking up to you never felt so real. I hate living without you, did wrong to ever doubt you. My demons lay in waiting to take me away. Oh how I adore you. Oh how i thirst for you. Oh how I need you. Comatose... I’ll never wake up without an overdose of you! I don’t wanna live. I don’t wanna breathe. You take the pain I feel. Waking up to you never felt so real. I don’t wanna sleep. I don’t wanna dream, cause my dreams don’t comfort me the way you make me feel. Waking up to you never felt so real......... Comatose... I’ll never wake up without an overdose of you! I don’t wanna live, i don’t wanna breathe unless I feel you next to me. You take the pain I feel. Waking up to you never felt so real. I don’t wanna sleep, I don’t wanna dream cause my dreams don’t comfort me the way you make me feel. Waking up to you never felt so real... oh how i adore you! Waking up to you never felt so real... Oh how I thirst for you! Waking up to you never felt so real... Oh how I adore you! The way you make me feel... Waking up to you never felt so real...” I do still want you in my life... please... I won’t ask for forgiveness... I don’t deserve it... I remember how we were before we became one... do you?

~Riakui, the Moonseeker~

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